Am I living a wrongful life?

Hello, I am 15, sophmore at a high school, and I was just wondoring if my life has a purpose or is it going the wrong way. I play football for my school, i get C's, im 138, 5'7, play cb, im not a druggie, but i do smoke weed 1 or 2 times a week just with friends, i feel that there is no point to going out with a girl until ur in college and they could be your soulmate, but if i go to a party, u get wat u can,(not a perv, just sayin) im not the nicest person, but i have trouble making in front of people i dont know, i hate persians (dont ask why) but im middle eastern too, just a different part, i luv my mom but i kinda talk to her like shes black just for fun, i got a father half a world away, both parents got remarried, my f-ing community (neighborhood) i live in hates me, half my coaches hate me, WTF did i do to any of them, im close to the point to taking some sort of supplement, but i think im smarter that that.. Just tell me what to do.... im not emo, so i wont cut of kill myself.

Am I living a wrongful life?
Acckkk!!! I hardly know where to begin. The fact that you are asking about if you are "living a wrongful life" means that on some level you already think you aren't living the life you should be leading. Look, no one is perfect and certainly not at age 15. Your youth is for figuring out who you are, what you want and how you fit into the world.





Let's start with the Cs. Well, I would be all over my kid for Cs, not because they are bad (let's face it, they aren't Fs), but because it would be limiting her choices in life. You want to get a good job and be in the position to have good career opportunities, well, the Cs aren't going to get you there. Football, I'm sure that's pretty fun. But where is it going to take you in the long run. Using supplements is BAD. Seriously, I've seen roid rage and it's really bad. As for your coaches hating you. Who cares! Are they going to be the ones giving you the recommendations to get you into college?!?





As for love, well, dating in your youth is part of "trying on" things so you know what is right for you. I understand that a lot of kids your age are "hooking up" instead of dating, but you are really missing out on some important stuff. How will you recognize your "soulmate" if you haven't had a few dud relationships first.





I'm not going to argue with you about smoking weed. I don't think it's good, but compared to doing steroids it's small beans.





As for your neighbors hating you. Again who cares. Have you ever read Rudyard Kipling's poem "If." Here's a link to it.





http://www.everypoet.com/archive/poetry/...





Most of the things that people say are important - popularity and physical perfection are all an illusion.





I really wish you good luck. I must say, you sound like an intelligent young man. You sound like you are at the point where you really want to find some meaning in your life. Not that many even think about it this early in life.
Reply:You're 15 and that is the way most 15 year olds feel. You love your mom and have some friends ... in the end that is all that matters. Don't worry about dating - if there is no one you are interested in - then that is just the way it is. As for the other people - Some people will love you, some will hate you for no reason. That is just life and that will go on until you are 100 years old. You aren't feeling or going through anything that most people don't go through and get through. So feel better. Just enjoy the people and things that make you happy and don't dwell on what doesn't.
Reply:15 is a tough age its a very confusing time for you. I do not believe that these people hate you that is just some of your confusion. as you get older things will clear them selves up . be a good person quit smoking weed that's goofing up your senses treat people the way you would like to be treated. good luck and take care.
Reply:Everything you do, you do by choice. You can choose to change your choices.





You can get all sorts of advice, but it will always boil down to that one simple thing.





It's totally up to you.
Reply:You seem to be living an average life that won't result to any great success.
Reply:" i luv my mom but i kinda talk to her like shes black just for fun"





What is that supposed to mean? If that is an example of your personaliy and humor than you are asking the right question and the answer is YES
Reply:You need to get your life together and have a goal. How do you intend to get into college with a C average. Maybe a community college will take you but is that what you want? Smoking pot leads nowhere but to feeling sorry for yourself and making your brain weak and lazy.


You are obviously starting to think seriously about your future because you asked this question. You are at a crossroads. Make up your mind to do better. Otherwise you will look back at this period of your life and wonder what you were thinking and why you squandered your youth.
Reply:teenage angst


what to do: keep busy and wait it out - the hormones that produce most of this feeling of hopelessness will taper off eventually





And don't worry so much what other people think of you. You need to figure out that you're the only person who matters in that respect. I recommend soul searching and maybe a bit of counselling too
Reply:%26gt;%26gt;%26gt;im not a druggie, but i do smoke weed 1 or 2 times a week just with friends,%26gt;%26gt;%26gt;





How does that NOT make you a druggie?





Weed is a drug, kid, not to mention an illegal one.





Your parents splitting up isn't the best thing in the world, but hey, it happened. It is what it is. If I were you, I'd deal with things the way they ARE, not the way you wish that they were.





Hating "Persians" and talking to your mother like she's black: both of them, to me, indicate some issues that you're having with racism. Start talking to your mother like she's your MOTHER -- not some "ho" in a hip-hop video. And remember that "Persians" are people too.





Stop doing drugs (and yes, you ARE doing them), stop the irresponsible sexual behavior at these parties you go to, and stop walking around thinking that half the town hates you (because they probably don't).





Do those things, and I'm quite confident that things will become much better.


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Reply:Change your life now. stop smoking pot cause it makes people unmotivated I don't know what you mean by taking a supplement but if you don't know alot about it just stop it. you sound like you are being careful with sex so that is good if I got that right...as far as neighbors %26amp; coachs hating you they only hate you cause you are sending out a vibe to them. you believe they are the type to hate you so we communicate telepathically, visualize yourself getting along with your neighbors %26amp; coachs %26amp; it will change. Actually there is a DVD called "the secret" %26amp; they have a story of how a man turned his problems around with an example like this. You are normal for your age so don't be hard on yourself. You are learning %26amp; growing . You are the power in your life. So if you mess up learn something %26amp; start on the right path again. focus on the good you are doing %26amp; keep repeating that %26amp; you will be fine.
Reply:Be a nicer person and you will feel better. I know it sounds cheesy but I'm serious. People don't seem to like you all that much, so how are you supposed to like you? Be cool. Get over your prejudices too.
Reply:ok ummmmmmmmm


wow thats reallly similiar to me but im more emo


(dont cut anymore)\


no life just takes time to unroll and reveal it self to you!


just be patient it can take time!


hope i helped
Reply:I think you just need to change your personality, be nicer and more easy to talk to. Don't do drugs at all, they kill your brain cells! umm...lets see.....you need to improve your grades, you won't get into to college with c's so that means you won't even have the chance to meet with girls. You seem like an annoying jerk, but you can change that, really you can. talk to your mom and see what she thinks, or go see your school counselor.=)
Reply:well everything is perfect!





except ur smoking weed with ur friend when ur 15..that not good.





if you love ur mom u stop smoking weed.


i think that why ur coach hate you...they found out that u smoke weed..





u going to quit when ur in college! that still not good becuase ur now in sophmore u have along way to go till college..so when u go to college it going to be hard to quit.cause ur addicted to it.
Reply:This kind of question would best be addressed by a professional, I think it's too detailed for an over the internet answer. My only comment is that it's offensive to call cutting/suicide "emo", a lot of people suffer from mental illnesses, and the things that you mentioned are legitimate symptoms. Good luck with getting some help though!
Reply:ur not living a wrongful life but if ppl around u hate u maybe u should see why they do cuz its prolly basically the same reason and then u could try to change that and then the ppl around u will accpet u more making u feel that ur not living wrongfully

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